I found the video above on my friends blog, Ms ShonaVixen. She inspired me.
To make a change, to improve, to move forward and push through life, needs actions and goals. I am not a planner by nature, which is strange considering my career choice which involves logical and systematic methodical sequences in carrying out activities. Everything has a standard which has to be followed.
It is inevitable that a point will come where my own needs above that of what i do for my daily bread will come at logger heads and one must win, i am two people in one body, two brains, two personalities, two lives. When i was young, i loved being smart, i loved being in the top ten in class. I came first in my seventh grade and that night, i remember feeling like a rock star. I have lost that zeal to learn, that curiosity, that drive.
What i am getting to is this, i had passion and although i didn’t know even then what i wanted to be, i approached life with vigour. Nothing was impossible. I was indestructible.
How did that girl, become this woman who has just accepted that she might just stay still while life passes by, while times tick tocks and sweeps aways that passion?
So, for the past few months, i’ve gone through this period of reflection, awareness and have realised i haven’t really changed from that girl. I have just become lazy and have been self enabling to stay still. I cannot make a change for the better if i do not work toward making that change happen.
I am blessed with more than i can imagine. Everything that i envisioned in my life has not been realised, but that does not mean it will not happen. Yes, there are obstacles, but we all know life is not a bowl of cherries, sometimes it’s literally awful. But what remains is this, we, me, you are the only people who can make what we want into reality. Take steps to achieve what we want, how we want it and work hard to get there.
The outcome, might not be as prescriptive as i write it now, it might not even look like what i dreamed about but the result may just be what i really need. So, i am making changes in small ways and big ways in myself.
For the next 30 days i am taking a challenge to:
Apply for a job everyday.
Pray and say thank you to my God everyday.
Go to bed early and wake up early everyday.
Find something positive in my life everyday.
Learn something new everyday.
These may seem mediocre in some ways, but to me they are vital stepping-stones in setting goals and realising them. In doing this i will try to learn to improve what i have to get what i want. Work towards gaining that zest i had for life once more. I want to see me, as i use to be. Full of quiet passion.